My Roller Coaster Ride

El’s Turning Two. A lot has happened since the day he was born.  It’s not just another ups and downs, it’s a rollercoaster ride, it might even like a six flags’ rides. 

Let's ride! Here's my ups and downs:

#1.  A Glowing Pregnancy

Keinginan: Kalo hamil mau glowing, supaya kayak artis Hollywood.  Minimal kayak selebgram, atau skuter ya, selebritis kurang terkenal. Gue PASTI bisa kayak gitu. Kate Middleton aja BISA walau Hiperemesis!

Kenyataan: Bangun aja males. Poles lipstik mual bau nya. Parfume eneg. Malas keramas. Maskeran deh sekali kali supaya gak jerawatan.

Ada sekitar 20% Ibu-Ibu yang kehamilannya naturally glowing. Tapi untuk yang self-proclaim, lebih banyak. :D

#2. Makan Sehat selama kehamilan

Keinginan: Setiap hari smoothies, makan sayuran organik disertai taburan chia seeds sebagai pelengkap. Protein nabati dan hewani tanpa lemak yang dimasak matang, disertai dengan menu seimbang lainnya.

Kenyataan: Cuma bisa masuk 3 hal: Ayam Taliwang super pedas, manggis sekali makan serenteng, dan eskrim Baskin Robin’s rainbow sorbet. Selain itu, MUNTAH.

P.S: Yang penting sehat. Sudalah, geng, kalo kata Obgyn kuh yang penting itu BERSIH, tidak tercemar salmonella.

#3. Foto Ciamik ala Newborn 

Keinginan: Foto Ayah-Ibu-Newborn yang lucu banget! Pake kostum ini itu, lalu di share di socmed biar sukses (whatever success means for you, darling)

Kenyataan: Bangun untuk browsing fotografer aja SUSAH. Sleep and take a proper bath is another challenge. Bersyukurlah yang bayi nya tidur nyenyak.

P.S: Dikala lagi merenungi hidup yang berubah, jam tidur yang berubah, mata berkantung, bersyukurlah kita sudah dikasih anak yang sehat. Walau 30 menit sekali bangun.

#4. To become a SUPERMOM

Because community wants us to be one.

Keinginan: Kayak di poster-poster dan blog-blog tentang perfect working moms. Meninggalkan anak dengan stok ASIP yang melimpah, pumping rutin, freezer full of ASIP, dandanan kece, black suit, a pair of loubs, effortless messy hair.

She’ll come to a neat, big home, with cheerful kids that’ll kiss her and hug her tight. Husband will kiss her, and they’ll live happily ever after.

Kenyataan: (at least for me) kerjaan gak rutin, so sometimes bengkak sudah tak tertahankan and i don’t have time to pump. And, of all working mom’s nightmare: i can’t pump! No breastpump can produce enough milk but my hand.  For the first two weeks i push myself to be one of commuterline fighter – gerbong khusus wanita, untuk mengejar stok ASIP. Tapi cerita KRL ku hanya sampai dua minggu, sampai tubuh ini ketularan virus campak seseorang di gerbong. *LOL* --- now i can laugh.

P.S: Kecuali kamu adalah ASI NAZI, like most moms nowadays. Like ME sebelum melahirkan. Lihat anak sehat itu sudah rezeki yang sangat sangat indah. Berjuanglah dengan ASI mu dan ASI saudara mu, sebisanya.

Janganlah stress lalu depresi lalu menyesali hidup hanya karena judgment dari emak sebelah, atau karena foto freezer asip yang over-exposed. I know, i feel you, i don’t like it either. Happy moms means happy baby. Jangan depresi! Wear that crown but don’t do the drama.

#5. I’ll get myself a regular ‘me time’.

Pikiran ketika hamil: I’ll be just like naomi davis of lovetaza. Why not? I’m blogging since 2007, i have a great family, and even if it’s not NYC, JKT is a city that never sleep either. Happy Kids, Happy Mom, everybody knows.

Oops, sorry for my mistakes. I mean I NEVER SLEEP. Eventhough El’s been very thoughtful and sleep through the night since months 8. I don’t know, it might be just me, but i can’t sleep through the night. It’s like a machine that regularly turn to standby mode at midnight, just checkin for El’s sleeping position. Is it my unconscious mind trying to steal my 'me time'

Or just checking emails.

And instawalking.

And there’s time when moments with your little one become too precious, you forget about your ‘me time’. Because he'll grow and you can't turn back time, and sometimes you're the one who erase the 'hang-out-with-the-girls' out of your weekly schedule. 

And that's okay.... hopefully.