your sweet escape..

All That Jar

2012-02-08T00:28:00.000-08:00

Ohhhh this is cute! i found these jars in various baking websites, and DIY.

1. RV in a jar

Via Cakies

2. Various layered cake

From Austin360

3. Desserts in a Jar

Cheesecake in a Jar via MyBakingAddiction

4. Cookie Recipe in a Jar

Found it here

5. Salad in a Jar

Found it here

6. S'mores cake in a Jar

via HowSweetEats

DIY and free printables

2012-02-01T02:44:00.000-08:00

I pretty much loves everything DIY since i was 10, when my teacher told me to knit a baby clothes (!!!!), got a good mark, and being displayed in school exhibition. I'm a proud student back then, i made dolls, i master various stitches style, i even made carpet!

My favourite thing is Silk Painting. I learn how to paint di Ci Ratna, guru craft terkenal di Bandung. Waktu itu lukisan gue ikut dipajang di Ina Craft, tapi not for sale karena that was my first painting ~~dan sekarang entah dimana~~.

Sekarang, setelah kerja 4 tahun, dan almost gak pernah lagi ngelakuin hal-hal spt itu, dan kerjaan lagi membosankan, i browse, and i found this Free Printable Owl Calendar. Cuma nemu printables aja rasanya udah seneng banget! <3

Nanti kalau udah punya rumah sendiri, pengen semua di print ~~goodbye rumah minimalis.~~

Below is my favourite DIY mama, sometimes pengen jadi IRT dan bikin-bikin ginian, tapi pasti seminggu aja udah bosan huehahahah..

1. Wall Art

Creatively Living

2. Shelves

My Champagne Taste

3. Printables

Organizing Homelife

IRT atau tidak, being superwoman is a must. You can have high heels and all that devilish look, but your kitchen appliances are waiting for you!

A decent sweet something

2012-01-27T00:58:00.000-08:00

Dear,

Was browsing my old pic when i found these:

How i miss sweet treats! Please save a decent Macaron pour Moi!

Review - Cupcake Arromanis

2012-01-26T01:35:00.000-08:00

Dear,

I have tried cupcakes, a LOT, and reviewed it one by one -saved in my notepad, errr, and i forget to publish it here- . So here is my 1st review, my friend's cupcake: Arromanis. Arromanis' claim its cupcakes are made with less sugar and less milk, with a choice of Red Velvet, Green Velvet, Marble Cupcake, topped with assorted toppings (cream cheese frosting with strawberry / matcha powder/ sprinkles/ almond/ corn flakes)

The Package

I love the package! Instead using a mass, plain cupcake packaging from a shop (i know, because i made cupcake too :p), she made it well designed, and tough, as it might delivered to other cities outside Bandung as well.

Package of Assorted Cupcakes

Sorry i didn't take the pic ~~-sekali hap langsung abis, terlalu meresapi review nya nyam nyam-~~ of Arromanis' RV.

At first, i thought the size is a regular size (d= 8 cm), so it was below my expectation when it came with a 3 cm diameters. But it's cute, remind me of a (slightly) bigger bakedbymelissa of NY. I first try the Red Velvet with cream cheese frosting, strawberry topped, and i LIKE it. The sour of strawberry, blend with a mixed of milky, cheesy frosting are somehow give me my mouth a mild sensation of Red Velvet. Or, it might be just because i finished it in my 3rd bites, so i got no 'weird-chemical' aftertaste, -usually from the excessive use of food coloring-. It slightly taste like Seradella, because it also topped with strawberry.

So, in conclusion, as a RV reviewer (not maker, phew), i prefer Arromanis than Alma, because of its less sweet taste, and to Seradella, for its price.

Green Velvet

It might be my very personal opinion, because i used to review RV only. But i don't think that Matcha powder is an appropriate taste for a topping, because of its bitter aftertaste. For the cake, it's not as moist as the RV, blended with (might be) too much Matcha Powder. I've tasted Green Velvet at Kitchenette, probably made by Alma, CMIIW, and it taste blah. So, in conclusion, i might not fall for this cake, i might fall for ocha, green tea shake, or green tea milk, but not for cupcake :(

Marble Cupcake

I LIKE IT! I personally think this is Arromanis' best. It taste like banana cake without banana chunk, it is soft, moist, light, and came with a beautiful color burst, ~~eventhough sometimes the excessive use of food coloring bothers me~~.It amazed me how Arromanis doesn't give that weird-aftertaste-food-coloring-effect taste in my mouth, good job, Arromanis! :)

For the topping, i love the frosting, even sometimes it's too milky for me. For that kind of 'milky' taste, its best companion -para mi- is strawberry! I also love sprinkles, but i'm not a big fan of almond-flake, because it's not crunchy enough to be a topping ~~-drolling for a nougat topping of Union's RV-~~. , and the least, Matcha topped, which is shaped very well, a cute star, but taste bitter ~~-hello, it's matcha powder, what do you expect, karin? dimana-mana rasanya sama, pahit!-~~

P.S: I think you can also order the regular size as well, if you are a cupcake monster like moi.

A Wedding PING!

2012-01-25T06:15:00.000-08:00

Sekarang ini gue sedang "mempersiapkan" 3 pernikahan. Not my wedding, but my best friends'.
Beberapa steps yang kentara banget dari bridezillas itu mostly mirip -sampeeeeeeee apal benerrr-, i.e:

1. "Karin, temenin belanja seserahan yaaaa"

-dan jadilah eke nyamuk yang menemani mereka (couples) belanja,red-
List of gifts include toiletteries, lingerie, make up, office wear, shoes & bag, dan masih banyak lagi tergantung lakinya mau ngasi apa. ~~makanya cari laki-laki yang dermawan :p~~

2. Keluarga sana ribet deh ternyataa!!

EMBERAN! most of my friend merasa seperti ini. Tapi ya emangnya gue udah nikah? bisa ngasi saran apaaa? jadilah gue diemin.. logikanya sih, mau gamau deal with big family ya harus deal with banyak karakter yang gak semuanya sejalan. ~~tapi kata agnezmo cinta itu tak ada logika~~

3. Kadang gue merasa sayang duit ratusan juta buat resepsi, padahal mendingan buat DP rumah

Kalo dikata gue siap kawin apa engga? siap siap aja mau minggu depan juga ~~kalo gak ujan~~, kalo cuma modal saksi sama penghulu. Kata Syarif yang mau kawin minggu depan, resepsi itu punya orang tua, kalau untuk rumah, dsb, nanti ada rejekinya masing-masing. Jadi, ini saatnya kita membahagiakan ortu, kalau mereka mau mewah/sederhana, terserah mereka aja. Kalo lo mau mewah, ortu lo nggak, ya berarti itu masalah lo :p

4. Dan berbagai PING! Lainnya, yang mostly ada di malam hari. ketauan kalau lagi galau sendirian sebelum tidur

Tapi hari ini ada yang beda dari Bridezilla #3. (dimana kalo lo baca ini, maaf ajeeee ya neng, ik ga tahan kalo ga sharing):

Her : Kariiiin dimanaaaa gua galauu...
Me : Knaposeh lo? Tumben-tumbenan galau..
Her: Ngapainnnn sih kawinnn?
Me: Whaaaat?
Her: Ngapainnn gua kawin, ini bukan prioritas guaaaa!!
Me : Please jangan cold feeeeeeet!!!

(dan berlanjut chat panjang, which made me think -as always-)

The common Qs are:

"What if my future wife/hb isn't the right match? or what if i'm just not ready for marriage? I was a pride, single lady surrounded by men, now, should i committed to one?"

If only i can answer that, my friend! I'm not even a Bridezilla, tapi that Qs menghantui hidup seumur-umur gak sih?

Believe me if i could back to 2003 myself, i'd choose what my psychologist offered me before i choose my Uni major :

"Karina, based on your strength, you could choose either be a psychologist, or PR. Not a Doctor"

(dan jreng bener aja ga keterima FK! Keterimanya Fikom UNPAD, Psikologi Marnat, dan HI Unpar). Tapiiiiiii, kalo boleeeee milih, mending gueee jadi psikolog aja, bisa ambil profesi. ~~I'll be a marriage counselor, or, psikolog anak~~. , SO I CAN ANSWER THAT!

Dan anyway, teman penulis gue, Syarif, menumpahkan perasaannya sebelum melepas masa lajangnya di sini. It's a good writing, and you might love the twist on it. :)

Review - Okesure p.II

2012-01-25T02:39:00.000-08:00

Setelah kehebohan sedikit di sini, akhirnyaaaa si putih kembali!!! <3 <3 <3

Setelah datang ke Oke Shop PP, dan dilayani sama Mas Harsa (Harso?/ Haryo?) - ya pokoknya itulah- dari Blackberry Service yang service nya sangat-sangat memuaskan, helpful dan sabar. Akhirnya, setelah BB diinapkan beberapa minggu, datang juga SMS dari Adira yang bunyinya : silakan lakukan pembayaran senilai Rp. 1.045.000. WHAT? Mahal amiiirr. - tapi setelah dibaca lagi T&C nya, emang kita akan dikenakan uang resiko senilai min IDR 100.000, sihhhh-

Dan saudara saudara..............untuk meminimalisir tangan ceroboh, dipasanglah soft jacket capdase, walaupun jelek, tapi mencegah hal-hal yang tidak diinginkan deh.

Dan dalam EMPAT HARI SAJA......

"Mbak, Tumis Buncisnya sama Terong Balado ya........"

PRAAAAKKKK...

UNTUNG ADA SOFTJACKET!!!!

Running Your Career like a Gentlewoman

2011-12-29T01:07:00.000-08:00

So, The Gloss gave us few tips on running our career like a gentlewoman:

1. A gentlewoman is generous, but not in a pathetic way

Instead of:

"Oh, you have the last dinner roll! No, really, you must. I know it’s my birthday, but deep inside I feel both superior and martyred when I make small, pointless sacrifices for others!"

You should:

Kind and generous to anyone who isn’t a threat or a serious competitor. A pep talk, interested question, or moment of mentoring in an elevator doesn’t cost you anything. If you have maternal instincts, you can use them in business. Plenty of men came up in their careers because someone treated them “like a son.”

2. A gentlewoman is comfortable with money

Instead of:

Wait for other people to pay for things, and halfheartedly open her purse and then look confused, waiting for someone else to jump in.

You Should:

Say something in a normal voice. For instance, “Should we split this one?”, or “Here’s forty, that should do it.” Please don’t embarrass all women with equivocal little-girl money bullshit.

For Example:

Back to careers: It’s hard to imagine a “ladylike” person effectively negotiating for a raise.

Here’s something interesting: The writers negotiated an agreement with a company she worked for, and felt that she had been firm and assertive, and had done a good job in the meeting. Nearly a year later, the same boss referred back to that meeting and said he was glad she’d been so “collegial” and “not adversarial.”

3. A gentlewoman is not sexist, even though she could probably do some damage

Instead of:

initiate anything with anyone who depends on you for money (and don’t interpret the deference and alacrity of an employee for attraction or even friendship).

You should:

With great power comes great responsibility! A teen-sized t-shirt that says “I beat up boys” is just sad. But it’s a totem of a larger problem of people who mistake feminism as meaning that anything a woman has the power to do must be, by power of semantics, empowering.

You can read full article here.

Review - Okesure

2011-12-28T19:33:00.000-08:00

Adira Care, PLEASE PICK UP THE PHONE!

Sincerely yours,
A Resek Customer.

So, after kejadian dramatis hujan angin, hape berumur seminggu itu jatuh ke dalam banjir dan kelindes motor. HUAHHAHAHAAH. -lamalama dirante ni hape, diranteeeeee-, untungnya, si putih iseng iseng diasuransi, ceritanya biar sadar asuransi sejak dini ya 30K doang, mengingat kecerobohan pengguna nya kebangetan.

Setelah kejadian, i called adira care 500 456, no cantik ya, sayang service nya gak secantik nomernya. berpuluh-puluh kali nelfon dari fixed line yang jawab cuma mbak-mbak manis dalam IVR (Interactive Voice Response), dan calls gw di dropped begitu aja.

Intinya puluhan kali dijawab IVR, habislahh kesabaran, dan langsunglah hubungi Adira Menteng. Selesai cerita, katanya gue akan dihubungi Adira Care secepatnya. PALA LOOO!!

Namanya juga sagitarius, ga sabar. Gue telfon lagi adira care 500456 pake HP, eh diangkat. Lapor ini itu, dan diterangin lah steps nya, misalnya gue harus ke service center yang ditunjuk okeshop dulu, dan dia NGEJANJIIN ngehub gw secepatnya re alamat service centernya. (apa sih susahnya kasitau alamat service center terdekat dari gambir, pasti lu juga punya listnya, ah tapi sutralah, do not bitching out, masi pagi neik).

Jam 12. gaada telfon. Gw nelfon balik, jawabannya sama : "kami akan hubungi ibu segera setelah kami memberikan konfirmasi kepada okeshop re lokasi service center". Dan karena hari itu tensi gua 80/60, lemes dsb, i don't even have the energy untuk ngomel. lagian kasian masnya menghadapi perempuan PMS tensi rendah. Semaleman nungguin, no calls. -Untung ada yang berbaik hati nraktir abundant supply of red meat, so, i have more color in my face :D-

So, next day, i called adira f-in care for 5x!!
"Tunggu sebentar ya bu, kami akan konfirmasi ..... tut tuuuut tuuut" -mati, dan ga ditlf balik- "oh boleh saya tau ibu berhubungan dengan siapa barusan? tunggu sebentar ya bu.... tuuuut tuuut tuuut"
kampreeeeet.

Akhirnya si mas kasihan (maaf ya mas) terkena rentetan maut mbak-mbak kurang darah menjelang cuti.., dengan ancaman pencantuman surat pembaca -selalu berhasil,red- dan, bertanya re SLA masing-masing steps. Bingung juga kali ya doski ada orang ngerti SLA, sutralah mas, anda hanya kurang beruntung aja hari ini. Akhirnya, yang maha penting alamat service center pun berhasil diinformasikan - dengan catatan : "saya gak mau nunggu lagi mas, ini telfon saya yang terakhir, atau, saya akan tulis surat pembaca" , red- hanya dalam waktu 30 detik. Daaaaan, dimanaaaa? Pacific Place sajaaaaa, yaaang kemariiin gue datengin. Pengen gampar ga sih?

So, dengan segala kerebekannya demi dapet ganti barang sama seharga 5mio itu yaoilooo menguras waktu dan emosi. Untung cuma bayar 30 rb! Let's see apakah si putih akan diganti barang baru?

My first Trailer!

2011-12-23T01:37:00.000-08:00

It took more than 2 hours to finish my 1 minute trailer!!

(and one day full tutorial from vimeo video school)

This trailer is about me and my friend who's lucky enough to spend 3 months in the city that never sleep.
We only have 6-8 free weekends, from total 12 weekends. So we have to rush things up to accomplish our missions after work...

Untitled from karinlives on Vimeo.

PS : i forgot to put the Title at Vimeo X___X !!

Life Lately in Mid December

2011-12-20T01:41:00.000-08:00

i barely see my desk. I've missed my family's birthday (each of them), i even spend my birthday with a delegates of whom i was attached to during some conference. So, when we hit Mid December, i finally throw my confetti, re-arrange my life, meet some friends, and new BF. :p But anyway, i love travelling, i don't care if i have to work. Life is beautiful, isn't it?

Plaosan Lor Temple, Yogyakarta

Russian-inspired Mosque in Kalasan, Yogyakarta.

Candy Shop at Christmas Market, Brussels

Quotes Wall in Yogyakarta

Beach Football at Bali

Cloudy Bali

Oh, and Saski, -my best friend- is finally married! i really love to see the couple finally make it!

Finally, after 10 years

My High School Best Friend :)

The New Guy :D

The Matchmaker :p

Speaking of which, my College best friend also make it to the next level! Congrats my dear Gria!

The Single(s)!

The Couple, pic taken from Agi's instagram

I really really love December, even i skipped my birthday moment, but i can sense love and happiness!

Presolution

2011-10-26T01:10:00.000-07:00

What a week! what a month!! what a year!!!

JRENGGGG. 26th of October. If i may, can i shout? it's only 2 month before the end of the year. LOVE this! i can't wait for next year!

You know that sometimes, i sit in front of my office desk, doing nothing but contemplating? What have you done, Karina? i never have a new year resolutions, but i always learn from what i've done. So let's see how far...

1) EAT.

I've reviewed almost all Red Velvet in Jakarta. Out of the sudden, it became a hype food, along with macaron, my other half. Por que? Never know. I've attended cooking class, made an opera cake, making a chocolate truffle, learned some baking tips by Laura's channel in Youtube, (trying to) make a macaron, made some traditional food, and enjoy every kind of food. I even ate lamb *puehhhh*, duck *yuck*, chicken skin *hoekk*, and liver *faint*.

2) PRAY.

I am enlightened. That's the only thing that i could say in a public blog.

3) LOVE.

I am loved. That's the only thing that i could describe in a public blog.

My friend said this today: Then, don't blog if you don't wanna share, K!

PS: some things are better left unsaid, friend! << this should be my (first) new year resolution

Tribute to Steve Jobs

2011-10-05T22:10:00.001-07:00

Inspiring Images

2011-09-28T01:12:00.000-07:00

I was browse non-stop in my low-volumed day, and I found these!

beautiful!!

Can i just

2011-09-28T01:01:00.000-07:00

pic from here

open my heart?

Finance Queen

2011-09-26T03:04:00.000-07:00

Seriously,

i have to wake up, i need to invest more. This market is now bearish! Time to buy tome to buy! *minum air dua gelas* *shock* *duitdarimana*. This is the moment when i just want to go back to my previous job, see the market, and predict the future.

Ah sutralah..

Beauty and the Beach : the tale of Sutini

2011-09-21T04:06:00.000-07:00

I was one of those budget traveler student, who once had a trip to a thousand islands which cost me IDR 300k (or, was it 450?). I once enjoy snorkeling in semak daun island.

Reminiscing the trip, last weekend i went to Tidung Island, which cost me IDR 695k, with abundant hope of beautiful white sand, and cozier home-stay. There was no particular things that makes Tidung more special than my trip before (pramuka, semak daun).

But again, this is weekend, why shouldn't we just enjoy what we had?

like: 1) pretending that i can ride a bike (which cost me bruises)

2) Plant Mangroves

3) Take a picture of my friends' first snorkeling moment

4) spend a half day burn ourselves under the sun

Ladies just want to have fun, outside our "Ibu Sutini" Home-stay.

Ciao, Bella!

Simple Happiness

2011-09-01T23:06:00.000-07:00

Pasar Cihapit, pic from here

Taman Lansia, pic from here

They said things happen for a reason

I used to have no time for family. Dating first, and if i had enough time, i'd give it to have a chatty moment with my parents, -very rare occasion-.

I used to have no time in the kitchen, except baking things for my bf.

I used to have no time to use my running shoes.

I used to have no time for everything. Except dating and socializing.

Now since almost of my friend are married -or preparing a wedding-, i realize that what is left for me is my family, to be exact, my parents. I might be not a very good daughter, since i just realize this things now in my mid 20s, especially in my singletini, and after i met a person who has a great love to his parents.

Today is the day when i commit to myself for a simple happiness: jog in the park with my parents, shop at traditional markets, and cooking. With no make up, no high heels, no artificial things and so on. 21 years in Bandung, i've never jogged in Taman Lansia, never shop at Pasar Cihapit, and never show up in a hype places, with a sport suit. I know, i know, it sounds like a brat.

Today i proved it that it was ok.

Yesterday is the day when i realize, that being mom is one hell of responsibility. I helped my friend breastfeed her newborn baby -harder that i thought it was- ; and realizing this: i feel guilty for not taking care of my parents that much. I very much intense having, and enjoying my 'networking' time, as it is part of my responsibility and tasks -anyway, it doesn't-. It's like put all your effort for a foreign policy, without a strong domestic policy.

Maybe God wants me to have balanced life, that's why, i'm being what i am now.

Bueno!

2011-08-28T13:29:00.000-07:00

The sun up at dawn.

daylight - Qatar from above

The Afternoon Sky - the beginning of Sunset

Late Afternoon

Night - The City Lights of Buenos Aires

I (SECRETLY) LOVE LONG FLIGHTS!

I have to admit this. Crossing the oceans, continents, time zones, and ecuator line, are amazing.

My first long flight attempt, was tiring like hell. So i tried to dig the positive side of it in my second attempt, soon after i realize that this is the time when you can just sit and relax, watching movies while the meals served in front of you. So far, this simply made 6 more long flights easier.

Lazy time is golden, since i almost spend every weekend in a rush, travelling to my hometown, and catch a very bad traffic there; trying to fit everything in 2 days: family, friend, bf (was). And the time goes by, i even forget when should i put my ''me time"

So this is the reason why i love long flights*:

Knowing you won't have to rushing things in the next >12 hours is relieving.
Uninterrupted time to Finish my >250 pages book. I know that some of us -a book worm- in the mid 20, find it hard to finish a 250 pages like we used to, so this is the time! Play an instrumental, and read a book. You still have more hours to spent!
Precious hours when you have to turn off your cell phone. You don't have the urge to see the blinking light in the corner of your phone, and reply everything. This is a little, simplest escape, without guilty. This is the time to accomodate your selfishness :p
You will love it when you have a nice looking man to accompany you for the next >12 hours
I love the feeling, but, it would be very nice, if i can get the business class, since my lower back is in pain right now, because of a 32 hours of a not very comfortable seat.

but i slightly hate this:

The swollen leg.
Overused lavatory. Smells like yuck.
Never ending -not really delicious- food supply >> no active movements = calories.
if i couldn't get my window seat, and got in the center instead. it basically withdraw all the reasons above.

one baby, please?

2011-08-15T04:59:00.000-07:00

This is a typical me.

I want babies because most of my friend has.

Could you scream to me, slap me, and shout: "Babies are not iPhone!"

Could you, please?

Craving for :

2011-08-15T04:48:00.000-07:00

A DECENT FOOD TRUCK !!

Yum Yum Cupcake truck

i once had this waffle (free!) from Wafels & Dinges tweepromo. Why don't we have such things in Jakarta??

Wafels & Dinges

Calling all the young entrepreneur.. me wants a decent, dessert food truck, por favor!

Kingdom of emptiness

2011-06-10T04:07:00.000-07:00

Last night i had my usual after-office meet up with my girl friends. I was stuck in Jakarta's traffic for about 45 mins. I enjoyed every minute, an awkward silence between me and my cab driver. I put my earphone on, and shuffle my iPod. I heard this song for the first time.

So, this is by Beyonce.

Scared of Lonely.

I try to be patient but I'm hurting deep inside

And I can't keep waiting, I need comfort late at night

And I can't find my way, won't you lead me home?

'Cause I'm lost in this dream, I need you to hold me

I'm scared of lonely

And I'm scared of being the only shadow I see along a wall

And I'm scared of the only heart beat I hear beating is my own

And I'm scared of being alone, I can't seem to breathe

When I am lost in this dream, I need you to hold me

I'm scared of lonely, I'm scared of lonely

WTF what are you doing Beyonce? R u turning into Adele?

and WTF, shuffled iPod, why you have to play this kind of song, in the middle of Jkt's traffic and sudirman city light?

Speaking of which, Lady Antebellum's Need You Now was played. Heck, this new toy is really know me well. and guess what's next? yes, i tweeted it. Runaway, Unplugged by The Corrs.

I love you, my phone.

I'm not lonely, i am with my friends. Many friends, here in Jakarta.

I'm not lonely, i don't have that usual female dependency.

I'm not lonely, i have hundreds of bbm contacts,

thousands of social network friends, and family.

I'm not lonely, never have and never will.

There goes my 4 hours after-office fine dine.

I was happy. Met my old friend. Everyone.

Click.

Door opened, i see my dark apartment.

I turned on the lights.

There it goes my friend.

Comfy couch, pillow, shoes and bags.

So, what are we talking about?

Loneliness?

Yes, it's me with my own heart beat and my own shadow.

I've accomplished my dream, and it was paid off.

Life is all about choices, isn't it?

If you can't see the bright side of life, polish the dull side!

Fear it? Feel it!

2011-04-08T10:28:00.000-07:00

So the word is : Gamophobia.

The fear of marriage.

Now i have the reason.

From a certain period of my life, i saw the behavior of some human being who's not really in line with my set of norms. World has evolved, my friends said. There's no such thing as our parents' love.

So, our parents set that standard. Or so i said, my parents has gave me the highest standard a couple could be. I read this very inspiring article : 'According to "attachment theory", how you are raised leaves a lasting impression on how trusting you you are in intimate relationships. Study has prove that in a nutshell, people whose parents were warm and loving and reliable sources of emotional support tend to be "securely" attached'.

and this is shockingly true (well at least for me, i always say this to my friend), as they will report in the journal of Psychological Science, securely attached people were -as predicted- much more upset about emotional infidelity than sexual infidelity.

77% said they are much more likely to find emotional infidelity more upsetting than sexual infidelity.

And so did my ex boss said : "I don't really care about men having a secret window shopping in some red light district, as long as they don't have any secret love and mistress"

at first, as a naive 22 y.o new kid on the block, what i thought was : "that's stupid, i don't want both things happen"

now, after all that experience, i have to agree with that (not so) stupid statement (though, i have to knock on the wood, i don't want this happen to me, and my circle of friends).

Don't afraid of get married, my friend said.

P.S: The cruelest lies are often told in silence. (Robert Louis Stevenson)

pretty (un)inspired

2011-04-08T08:41:00.000-07:00

It's been too long since i wrote my last 'confidante' post. It's been too long for me not to have a very touchy talk with my girl friends from whom i got inspired. I'm just too excited for this trip. Tu es magnifique!!

PS: after all this excitement, what i miss most is my Family and Girl Friends, and since i have our moment back, and quite inspired from some of their (/our) little black book of twenty something.

C'EST UNE BELLE VIE !

Arbiter of Style

2011-01-07T13:42:00.000-08:00

i just joined Fancy , follow super cool people, and browse cool things. For me, it's a micro de.ici.ous feat twitter, with a little bit of tumblr. Uber cool, way to go, fancy!

Fancy me?

The breath you take

2011-01-06T20:28:00.000-08:00

Life’s not the breaths you take

The breathing in and out

That gets you through the day

Ain’t what it’s all about

Ya just might miss the point

Try’n to win the race

Life’s not the breaths you take

But the moments that take your breath away

-George Strait-

is it too late to say....?

2011-01-06T12:47:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011 !!

something is better left unsaid, but this one is better late than never, rite?

so far, what i did in the old and new party are :

- Stood for 9 hours in 38F at Times Square

- Zig zag ran for more than 4 blocks for the sake of a good spot

-Shoulder to shoulder with a very cute -yet gay- couple

- Saw people pee pee in a bottle *yuck*

-Aired as a reveller in one of NY channel (i thank my G11, the cameraman found it a good object to be shot)

-Wrote an online confetti, hope someone will read it

-Dance in Ke$ha, Taio and NKOTBSB. every one hour. Seriously NY, don't you have another song to be played? Rihanna? oh yes, u played that in a loop mode.

-Punched, pushed by some revellers with maneuver. *yelled at some other asian groups that pushed my friend, and move themselves to the front area. for God's sake, discipline!!*

-Increased hand to mouth action. HAHHAHUNGRY.

do it. NOW!

2010-12-30T14:26:00.000-08:00

I love chick literature, why not? it told you silly things, predictable ending, and smalls worthless sparks in your belly. Yes, it sometimes resembled you, in a negative kind of way, or let's just say, they cover up sarcasm as if it were cute and sophisticated.

There's something there which gave me an idea about everything we should do before you sacrifice yourself to another step of life.

(1) Things to do before you have your kids and tie the knots with McDreamy

Wear Miniskirt. Have as many lie-ins as you can manage. Date a handsome jerk. Travelling around the world. Read a 500 pages book. Spend your money for one day spa. Wear 16 cm heels. Start doing your pelvic-floor exercise now. Leisure, and indulge yourself with one luxury thing you buy from your own money. Eat like a pig. Bungee jump. Do crazy thing. Babysit your cousin. Meet everyone. Date as many person as you can, so you can sense a jerk in a minute.

(2) Imagine if you could meet your younger self

Don't break gym membership. Have a private vocal lesson. Learn at least one musical instrument. Don't read a book in your bed. Be more assertive, speak up! Friendster is not cool. and oh, he's The One - don't let him get away.

2011 resolution(s): NONE

2010-12-29T13:58:00.000-08:00

I don't have any New Year resolution. And i do not care about that. Last year? i don't have. Next year? i won't either.

Woman at my age have. All my friends have (at least they tweeted it). I'm not, because for me, it was fun when I've accomplished everything i didn't plan.

I can’t predict what tomorrow will bring, but I know what yesterday wrought. Why set yourself up for disappointment? Instead, I reflect on the past year and try to come up with lessons that will help me the following year.

and the lessons learned are:

Never break your pension fund for a camera just because you are too young to have that. Applied a trimonthly insurance, at least you won't worry about it every month. Drink and dance while you can; don't hold that move just for the sake of your new identity. Money can't buy happiness; this is cliche, but i love my job better than before, and got paid less than my previous one. Kopaja is not a bad idea; at least i did it!. Betrayal's only applied to a man who doesn't have a ball; true gentleman will talk to you, not hide it. Cupcake is another form of alcohol; it's addictive. Sometimes when people cry, they just want you to watch them cry; don't talk-don't touch; just listen and watch. Facebook is overrated, tagging here and there, and voila, you lost your mojo in writing; spend your worthless time staring and stalking other people's live.

Your Mom is your best friend. Pencil skirt is my lamest comfort zone. I put my confidence in a nude-taupe-pale pink-and grey. Handbags are never out of my sight. Coach is overrated and just another 'made in china' bag. Female forum are useful. There are labels for a certain group; so, do not grouping - you are born alone, you are an individual, you're not define by your peers. I always left my heart in New York. I survived the 2007 storm, and the 2010's blizzard. End of year sale could be a trap. Do not buy one size smaller shoes, buy bigger. Handsome men are jerk; so, choose the lesser jerk.

The Backup Husband

2010-12-29T11:48:00.000-08:00

Did you ever have a marriage pact with your guy friend?

Oceans apart, two ladies had a call over a Skype. The GMT+7 ask that question first.

GMT+7 : Did you ever have a marriage pact with your guy friend?

GMT-5 : i'm not sure if it was a pact. i'm not sure if it wasn't either. why?

GMT+7 : because i heard you have one. The cute little pact of marry with each other if you both single in your 28ish? or 30ish?

GMT-5 : i'm not sure about the age, keep on going, i need to refresh a bit of my memory..

seriously, did i make a pact? have i known, i wrote it and get it hang in my wall, before it's too late and i'm married for money or ended up being a single old lady..

CRUPCRAKES!

2010-12-28T14:38:00.000-08:00

CRAP!

i love love love this red velvet and Reese's peanut butter cupcakes. Size is bigger than the usual one; moist cake and proper frosting are mouthwatering. Everything is nice, except the calories. Must. Work. Out. (my treadmill session only burn 30 cal, one stick of a hershey's low fat twizzlers!!). MEA MAXIMA CULPA!

Welcome

2010-12-09T01:40:00.000-08:00

"pink and taupe doesn't resembled weak shallow and tyrannic scarlet"

The beauty of the world never fails her, as she loves airports, window seat, and long flights, and a long transit (in a decent airport). Luckily, she got the 'supportive' job to do so.

As a Martha Stewart fan, she learn to bake everything from onbijkoek, cupcakes, to (a failed) macaron. She also loves dusty pink, taupe, and everything in between. She also loves to take random pictures, but not claiming herself to be a professional one, since she hate the bulky DSLR, and still stick to her G and appl family. As you can see, she's a little too loyal on unimportant, and of course, important things.

That's why she hates betrayal, and om-om gatel.

She also hates dentists, house gecko, carrot, dust, PC and smelly man.

Tacky Wacky Tech Geek

2010-12-02T12:33:00.000-08:00

Born as a perpetual kid, i always love being surrounded by colorful things. From a barbie bandage to kate spade iphone case, fur pens, fake mechanic pencil, cigar pencils, every little unimportant things that keep my insanity and feed my inner child.

because i'm an OCD and i need my hand cleaner than sh*t (Fred)

Throw your boring earphone, add some icing sugar on it! (Fred)

Spinner 360 camera from Lomography (Fred)

Marc Jacobs Laptop sleeve

FOOD WHORE

2010-12-01T13:50:00.000-08:00

Cream Cheese Bagel for breakfast, Chez Mix Pretzel for snacks, Magnolia cupcakes, chocolates, pop tarts, cheese puffs, candies (Dylan's candy bar and Hershey's are still waiting for me tho) and i'm on my highest point on high bacon phase (beef+bacon

+cheese burger, each of it 1,710 cals), chips and cheesy fries.

Screw that Victoria Secret's fashion show models! *munching*.

Oh , and i love love love Tasteologie for putting those beautiful picture of food. I also found my fave 'comfort zone' food, mac and cheese recipe here.

FooGasm!

MAN(less)HATTAN

2010-11-24T11:37:00.000-08:00

Stepping up her thin soles in the cold stair, she walked towards the greatness glory of capitalism, where all the signboards broadcast all worldly happiness. God is Great, she whispered. Human are great, also. She thinks about all the beauty of God's print in the bluest sky of Bali's beach, and greenest green in the forest of Kalimantan. But in Times Square, she saw the reddest red in a chocolate animated board. She blinked, and indulged her eyes and brain before switch her brain into the shoes of multilateralism.

Nothing special there, beside a bulky fluorescent billboard, and a sweet memories. She was reminiscing something in the exact capital of consumerism which stretched from 42nd st-47th st in an island called Manhattan.

In the exact place, 3 years ago, when everything was naive and sweet. She was standing there, with flying color, a bursting red and rainbow boots.

Now that she goes Monochromatic, so does Manhattan. There's no more MAN in MANhattan.

welcoming the #galauday and #quarterlifecrisis

Dopplegangers

2010-10-27T05:33:00.000-07:00

Robin : It's never ending battle of my life: career versus romance

Ted : career has been trouncing romance for years! It's like the Globetrotters versus the Generals. Career's sinking hook shots from half court, Romance is just a bunch of slow white guys who couldn't make it in the italian league.

Robin : Ted, I'm lost

---

Robin : Ted, am I just the biggest idiot in the world?

Ted : Five years ago, you never would have chosen love over your career, but today you did.

Robin : Looks like i'm getting dumber

Ted : No. just more courageous

What If?

2010-10-23T07:56:00.000-07:00

What is your best effort to make your future life befit with your dreams?

What if you haven't had any chance to made it to the top?

What if you get a muddy feet instead of walking in a high quality granite?

What if you have a muddy water in your backyard, instead of a beautiful river view?

Put a little curve, and smile, face the world and fight for the best :)

at 23/20 , Sekdilu 35 gave their best to put a big curve in the kids of Bantaran Kali Ciliwung's face, and be a friends of the earth by planted 148 trees. There's a shine in every tunnel, a clearer sky in every storm, be happy, and smile, my friends. :)

More of Sekdilu 35 Berbagi, here. You can also see the video here

ring a ding ding

2010-10-22T08:55:00.000-07:00

Today's coffee meeting has made me brought into my obsession du jour a la creme de la creme : super sweet, silicone made, creamy ring, with sprinkles topping.

Got these rings from a friend of friend of mine (CS.NC). It was love at the first sight. The frosty cream was made of silicone, but, unlike breast implant, this is unsqueezable. You can find these cute rings here.

I love the way you lie

2010-10-18T07:25:00.000-07:00

I seriously take this things seriously.

I hate the way you lie. The Quality of being honest is the quality of a man. The quality of a man defines the quality of your life, and the quality of your life will bring your life to the pointed top of mountain.

at the certain point of my life, anything could happen. and i don't deserve a lie.

White lie is not a justification, so does fashionably late. There's no such thing as fashionably late, it's just late. There's no such things as white lies, it's just a lie. You got a big present, wrapped with the finest gold and super fine ribbon, and you found a spoiled fish inside.

Does the finest wrapping still remarkable?

To the left, to the left, i'll find another man in a second.

Loves and kisses,
K

Let's have a sleepless night...

2010-10-06T08:55:00.000-07:00

.....in the City that never sleep. Yes, i'm going to New York!

so i listed every pro and cons, let's pretend to be one of them:

Marsh(m)all(ow) : It is paid off! my endless task and crap is paid! i got a short posting in NYC, i could possibly meet Ban Ki-Moon! my dream since i was a kid! i will have a sleepless night, but hey, i'm a Diplomat now.

Lily(pad) : Ooooh NYC is cute, i can have pairs of boots, oooh noo i can see the paramount of my credit card bill, and the overweight luggage in the next 3 months.

Ted Mosby : Figuratively, that is the best way to boost your career up. But yeah, sleepless night? can i still have a chance to have the NY TV and Movie Sites Tour? i want to see Chandler & Joey's apartment! i want serendipity, oh maaann i'm so hopelessly romantic. i think i can score the 2 minutes date!

Robin : ooh, i'll evolved to the new Robin. The new life, where i can explore all the beauty of works. Who need relationship when i can get NY?

Barney Stinson : SUIT UP!! it's gonna be LEGEN -wait for it- DARY. My first NY trip is to attending the UN Model, so maybe if i can get through the real UN session, i'll score a MAN in MANhattan. Oh i love that line. MAN in MANhattan.

So, i'll take what i can get. Never thought life will bring me back to the city before my entry permit expired. But life is full of surprises, shoot a star, get a moon. Dream about Paris, got NYC. Avoid the substance, but get in the circle of the most substantive place. Bring it on, i'll survive. And, thanks God for the chance <3

Welcome, monochromatic suit!

Suit Up!

A fireplace

2010-10-06T08:13:00.001-07:00

The smoke and combustion gases up from a fire through the roof of Adam's house.

Being blanketed in a fake warm, he got up, looking through the attic's window, see the darkness outside, while having a cup of warm liquid.

In a glance, he saw an empty bench. A bench where all the good past started.

-Her smile was fictitious, her lips curved in a perfect shape, her perfect cheekbones are amazingly remarkable.

There is nothing but perfection. Her warm heart told Adam that nothing in this world could not be conquered-

Snowflakes dropped. Carols sang. Eve's not coming back. The bench is empty. No remarkable smile. No perfection. No Adam and Eve.

in a thick coat

2010-09-13T20:34:00.000-07:00

In a bitterly cold, hard bench, Eve has find it hard to breath. With an uncontrolled emotion, she exhale her breath. A cloud of exhaust fumes from her pink lips, disappeared, up in the air.

The night is still young, and the loneliness is killing her. She put away her leather gloves, warm up with a bottle of a clean liquid from a former communist country in eastern Europe and northern Asia.

In her vivid imagination, the splash of a dusky light came from a small window of happiness. A 50cm holes from a small house, big enough for Eve, to realize how she misses all the laugh, and hugs. All the things she need the most, when the universe is pulled together and conspired against her.

Stand up from the bench, she awkwardly walk into the nearest station, looking for a warmer place to curl up, avoiding home for a while.

She couldn't believe he's not Adam.

As an old proverb said : Home is where you left your heart in.

and

Adam. is. not. Home.

(cont....)

#fiksimini disclaimer

2010-09-13T06:38:00.000-07:00

This is a pre-caution and disclaimer, for whoever read my posts with #fiksimini tag:

"The name and character in my posts , doesn't resembled any character in the real life. If my stories happened to be similar with your personal life, don't take it too serious and kill me. Just remember, that you are not the center of the universe, and neither do i"

Mi Hijo/a

2010-07-20T00:42:00.000-07:00

Khadija

Since 30% of my friend are starting their little family, and my obsession of kids are getting intense, esp after the grown up Suri Cruise , Zalva's (astrie's) unbearable cuteness , and the shy, 2 years old Khadija (Omar's).

Someday, i'll deliver my kids in a warm water, by a water birth, let them have a nice picnic at a green, clean-aired garden, and stuck their tongue in a snowflakes. is it impossible in Indonesia? No.

I'll let my kids learn to be minorities, just like me, a non-Java-non-Moslem living in Bandung for the rest of my life. When i have my elementary at Catholic- Chinese School, i was learned about how to survived, alienated by my first group of friend, and ended up having them as my friend until my junior high, as my mom let me choose my own path for my senior years and college.

I remembered reading Sri Mulyani's bio printed in the newspaper, telling us that we should appreciate the minorities, that the most valuable lesson in life is dealing and adapt with differences and shock. She let her child, the majorities (Java-Moslem), to life and study abroad, to be a minorities, so they can appreciate others more. Believe me, being a minorities is tough, but, what are we if we can't conquer the world? That've made me as i am now.

So kid(s), even when u are not even a zygote now, and i'm not even married yet, i promise i'll give u the best father in the world, so you can conquer the world, breathe in a clean air, eat the best food, running here and there with the finest clothes and shoes, best school, and travel the world. I promise i'd found you a PhD -potential husband and dad- who'll give you the warmest and the most comfortable feeling in the future.

one more thing : you should try a snowflakes just like Suri :)

Stalactite and Stalagmite

2010-07-16T08:06:00.000-07:00

A cup of banana chocolate -since my eyes r hardly afford caffeine- , a book -bright light, big ass, which i put on the table as my mood swings to writings-, and a jazz -la vie en rose-, are my boyfriend(s) since my 4th of July (1).

I recently settle my heart into *drumroll* family, friend, and career. Enough with bf and Quarter Life Crisis, it won't end soon anyway. I just need Donald Duck, Onemanga , books, DVD, and Mr.Almost Perfect (2) (which i still believe that God is still hiding him somewhere behind His office desk).

Does anyone of you think that my heart is made of stone?

The answer is : YES. and all i need is a tough and constant waterfall to make my heart beautifully shaped just like Stalactite and Stalagmite.

I demand you, yes you, all the people in the world who's been backstabbed by your second circle (3) to cry, cry out loud, don't lie to your heart, just like a cave, u'll dull and dark without water. But then, STOP! Stop it at the 3rd day, don't be flooded. Don't look back, and you'll see the afterglow. A heaven full of green trees, happy kids with chocolate and candies, bluest sky, and clear water. Believe that everything is happened because God will show something better u've hardly imagine.

Don't be afraid of dreaming , as Rachel (4) sing : Don't Stop Believing, Hold on to that Feeling , and yes, the hardest part of dreaming is HOLD ON TO THAT FEELING. Be Realistic, God is in His very good mood when He's writing a good scenario for your life. There's no bad day, it's just you, who make it bad.

So, stand up, chin up, whoever you are, let go, let your bf/gf marry someone else, let them win, do not compare, their grass is greener because of a good fertilizer. Go fertilize yourself with a better compost, the best one.

Have a nice weekend, shape your heart limestone!!

Footnote(s):

(1) i declare myself free, just like American. Anyway, it was Momentous. LOL

(2) it can be fictitious , but i have the candidate(s)

(3) 2nd circle refers to my 1st degree of friend, such as bf and his mistress (yes, i consider her as a friend)

(4) i'm not a big fan of Glee, because i only watched the first and third episodes. Anyone care to lend me a full session?

It was about SPARKS

2010-06-03T06:40:00.000-07:00

#thequoteswhichi'mdyingtohearonemoretime OHHH #ishouldwritethisontwitter!! #SATC2

i'm carried away!

2010-06-03T05:11:00.000-07:00

finaly arrive, carrie on!

carried away to the BW NYC backdrop and free flow wine

The Crowd

It was a sudden call. In the middle of a long speech of my new Director, a good friend of mine asking me to come to SATC Gala Premier, just when i need it. In my uber boring routine, after a few months of of absence and non-lucrative events,i finally carried away to Kempinski, sipping my friend, Moscato, the sweet and stomach friendly,(with the most proper dress in the dormitory).

Anyway, the movie itself was FUN.FABULOUS.FEARLESS,and empowered us as a woman, there's a lot of quotes about it.

I can't help myself obsessed by Sex and The City 2's quotes. It was so much i even categorized it into uncountable. i'll wait for the DVD, and write it down here (after the mid test, of course)

life is am(AGING)ly Beautiful

2010-05-30T05:43:00.000-07:00

don't ask genie, ask yourself !!

Im not going to say that i'm old. not at all. please, being 24 is not THAT old, even if you are 12, we are in the same chinese zodiac! yay ! *big-cyinical-grin*

Anyway, most of my fabulous girl friends have their perfect of a perfect shimmering-shining-unique-romantic-exceedingly great wedding. A nice, tight and slimming wedding dress by anne avantie or vera wang, a white sand and blue ocean , a green grass, or maybe a lucrative indoor reception. whatever it is, please re-consider...

Here we are, talking about us*, who create a perfect image of wedding reception without the essence of wedding itself. It takes 2 hours in a lounge, with a glass of red wine and a basket of chips, and the blabbing is going here and there (and of course, distraction of the 'suspicious' sighting of a young girl with an old bald man -who can stand not to talk about it anyway?-) and the result is here *drumroll* :

"are we ready YET? or we* just rushed by our married friend, therefore we just want to rush it, then we'll get the normal label? or just to avoid the 'BIG' question you've avoid in your friend receptions? or you just want to throw a big party (since the last time you have it is when your best friend is pimples and high school drama from your sweet 17th bday?)? or love, readiness for the happy and sappy moment you'll spend with your lifetime partner ? or is it an act of devotion?

Because we're not living in a 90 minutes pixar life , friends. And live happily ever after is just a phrase in a disney line.

it's not far far away, marry your mr.right, not mr. right now..

Loves,

Ms.K

(which i believe will still be a 'miss' until my silver age)

note:

* : please pinch yourself if you think this 'us' / "we" refers to me and boyfie. this 'us'/"we" is myself and my girl friends

insecurity

2010-04-23T20:14:00.000-07:00

Pardon my French, but Insecurity is like B***H who F**K your husband in front of your F**KING FACE when u EFFING SLEEP. it's like state's SI-OPS (Silent Operations) ; you can feel it, but you don't have PHYSICAL evidence that you are threatened by whoever she/he is.

it's like an itch you can't scratch,

A bruise you suddenly have when you wake up.

i'm so effing messed up. period.

the ambition

2010-04-19T07:10:00.000-07:00

ambitious |amˈbi sh əs|having or showing a strong desire and determination to succeed (of a plan or piece of work) intended to satisfy high aspirations and therefore difficult to achieve.-oxford dict-
Spanish - AmbiciosoArabic - Ammassa
My eyes was bright, seeing those ambicioson actively talk and ask about everything outside my 'box'. My busy little box which contained 'what to do tonight, what to wear tom, where r the best new place to hang out, etc, etc'.
I mean, get a life, hang on there fellas, and you'll see your hair fall and suffer an early hair loss. it was like, so 3 days ago. Then i met my friend, the brightest one, the human ensiklopedia , a certain type who will see my header blog and said "what's so important reading these craps? i want politics"
My brain unpuzzled it, staring at his bright eyes and listen carefully with fully standby ears. Why he's so smart? then i realize, it's his ambition. his hobby. his aim. his girlfriend. nothing's wrong with that.
(seriously,it made me think that i was left beeeeeeeeeeehind)
so i take a small step towards aiming my little ambition, reading my 43 lists , fire up a little, imagining NYC, Paris, Milan, and Rome; set them as my wallpaper, believe in law of attraction, minimizing the unimportant-big stone (steven covey's term of big stone in 7 habits) that made me stumble.
“Keep away from those who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you believe that you too can become great.” - Mark Twain-
so, friends, chin up, have a little faith, keep your ambition sparks. make mama proud.

being cheesy is a sin

2010-04-08T08:11:00.000-07:00

¡Hola! it's been ages since i left my french class, forget all, oui, Je suis perdu, and starting a new chapter of Spanish and arabic classes.. and here comes my poems, spanish homework with a little touch up from mi amigo...

Tu eres la musica, Que quiero escuchar,

Tu eres la cancion, Que quiero cantar,

Tu eres la melodia, que quiero oir,

Tu eres las letras, que quiero escribir,

Tu eres la banda sonora de mi vida,

Te Quiero!

Lost in translation? Hear hear!

You are the music, that i want to listen,

You are the song , that i want to sing,

You are the melody, that i want to hear

You are the lyrics, that i want to write

You are the soundtrack of my life,

I love You!

I'M SORRY FOR BEING THE CHEESIEST CHEESY. but i can't help it..

because

you are the fairytale that i want to believe.

ok enough, you can throw up now..

elegance

2010-04-08T01:08:00.000-07:00

wedding cupcakes, pics from here

It doesn't means that i'm gonna get married anytime soon, but i can't help myself from obsessing elegant-little-unimportant piece of cake , and the perfection of wedding receptions, sounds familiar? the 27th dresses , the wedding obsession..

Money can buy Happiness!

2010-04-01T10:15:00.001-07:00

It's REDUCED !!

...... and ESSENTIALS !!

Why not ??

and then i came home with gap blazers, cashmere cape, and Banana Republic heels , all worth +/- 4mio IDR, and paid only +/- 800k IDR.

it's not shopping. it's investment. :)

Have a nice sale season!

imogen heap !

2010-04-01T09:03:00.000-07:00

imogen heap wearing JVSTIFY kimono batik by yasmina (GHOST)

oh, it's 30 mins late, no problemo senorita!

it was AWESOME !!

Imogen heap's gig last night was the best gig i've seen.

anyway, the 30 mins late was paid off. i was speechless, and so did everyone.

We want you back this year, por favor!

sooooo, say Goodnight and Go !!!

it's blank

2010-03-16T08:57:00.000-07:00

maybe it's blogger block..

i don't know what to write anymore..

i lost my touch..

my sarcastic-gloomy words..

so , bye now..

Selamat Hari Raya Nyepi :)

it's 24!!

2009-12-18T06:54:00.000-08:00

By the time i post this, it won't be December the 9th anymore.

It's 24th, i'm happy with everything happened to me, even the hardest, crisis part like this. Yes, rainbow won't come without rain.

24 reasons for a grateful 24:

1. I'm blessed , being educate with an old shool, conventional family, which made me stay right in this false world. Stay where i am just like 24 yrs old ago, and having a conventional thought about that one precious thing.

2. I'm blessed, to have a super strict school, while my friend hanging around , mixed it with a wrong person.

3. I'm blessed to have a super strict weekend with a 00:00 curfew. Because i'm not got drunk in a club, hugging with the strangers and got debased.

4. I'm blessed my parents let their youngest, the one and only girl in a family to go out of town and learn something new. It's like let your chihuaha hanging around in a fanceless zoo.

5. I'm blessed that i have a commitment phobic. Because i can take it easy when all of my friends getting married, and all of the external circle is keep pushing me down. We won't rushed everything for the sake of everyone. It's us.

6. I'm blessed, living alone in apartment, and have a space on my own.

7. I'm blessed living in a big city with many promos in an unexpected area, not malls. Feels like Becky Bloomwood facing herself in a secret sample sized sale.

8. I'm blessed to have a group of the twenties, with the same problem : quarter life crisis and no idea where we are.

9. I'm blessed to have a whine and wine session with that group.

10. And i'm blessed, i can afford that #6-9. Although it's like my saving account is doing on a weight reduction programs.

11. I'm blessed to have a boyfriend. A neat and tidy one. Not like me.

12. And i'm getting around well with his family. which is like an award winning.

13. Oh yeah, and i feel blessed that he's not a kind of someone who's looking for a trophy wife who stay at home doing a skin and hair treatment, invest in a clothes, spoilt and can't even boiled water and do the laundry , and hv nothing else left in her head except a face and hairy skull.

14. I'm blessed i'm out of town. Knowing that my hometown is full of snob gang who still think they're always better than anyone, because for me, they are sooo jago kandang.

15. I'm blessed living out of town, because i simply have a hometown. :)

16. I'm blessed to be a dealer in the treasury division as my first job. It has thought me to analyze deeper, think faster, and paid more.

17. And i'm blessed to have a second job to work (soon) in a Department of Foreign Affairs.

18. I'm blessed to have this look, even sometimes i'm really afraid of wrinkles, at least i'm not a geek-looking girl, but doing geeky job.

19. I'm blessed, being a wishy-washy person. So i experienced double schooling, and double personality *cough* mood swinger. It's volatile and it's fun.

20. I'm blessed every weekend. Because i can appreciate family and boyfriend, better than before.

21. I'm blessed i'm an introvert. Because it's simple to be happy. Read, write, think, and sleep.

22. Based on my office's psychological test, i'm blessed i have a double personality, An Introvert extrovert, which means A calm extrovert. Even my test is a wishy washy right? or i'm just too greedy?

23. I'm blessed that noone in my inner circle is a problem maker. I can't stand a shout.

24. I'm blessed if u read all of my list. It's a long list, thanks so much.

The Lost Soul

2009-12-06T07:45:00.000-08:00

Pic taken from here

December 6th : When you got what you want and clueless what to do next.

A night is still young when i look at my apartment window, to the city light of Jakarta, an Indonesia's NYC. Where a lucrative life stands proudly beside the ghetto. A city u have to conquered to prove that you are cool enough to sip the wine in the hippest lounge, wear your killer heels, and spend all your money for the sake of envious eyes of your hometown 'it' girl, who's stay there doing a 'snobbish business as usual' and their 'dirty laundry'.

We have, -from our 24 ish eyes- conquered it. We're out of town, we're here sipping the finest wine and expensive beer in the hippest place in town. At our age, we've made our own money (maybe) more than the girls in our hometown. We've got the position, we've got the title, we've got the money to be wasted.

Now i close the curtain, covering the city light which doesn't give me a happy feeling. Just a flat feeling i can get from buying a vegetable from a grocery.

I lost the soul when i need it most. Empty.

There's one thing for sure that money can't buy. A soul.

we r all facing this Shitty Period !

2009-12-06T07:22:00.000-08:00

thanks for the pic

I quote this from a friend, who also suffered a QLC :

Quater Life Crisis : It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like.You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life; You feel alone and scared and confused; Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better; All this while you had been convincing yourself that you didn't want to be tied down to any person; Now suddenly you have moments of self-doubt when you wonder if you waited too long and let someone special get away. You love someone but maybe love someone else too, and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person! Random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and ‎acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic;You want to be independent but suddenly, the idea of having the stability of a special someone to trust and lean on doesn't seem all that bad. You want to be your own person and yet be taken care of at the same time.You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender.We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.This is a shitty, shitty period.

hi december

2009-12-02T05:03:00.000-08:00

Bye Desk!

Hi December,

It's almost a year since i publish my post in mybusylittlebrain.
Things have changed.
I have to leave my desk, which i hate every Monday.
I thought it gonna be easy, to leave something that you don't really love and care.

But sure i'll miss my boyfriend there, my super loyal, who taught me everything, who knows everything. ~~Who's~~ which never complain. Bye my Bloomberg, i wish i could bring you home.
I'm sorry for not taking care of you very well. But at least, i didn't pour coffee on your keyboard. :). I have to let you stay there with your new girlfriend, Natalie. I bet she'll treat you good, honey.

By Mr Bloomie, will miss ya!

And i'm sure i'm gonna miss my buddy there. My 32 year old sloppy friend who taught me how to deal with the clients. My personal driver who drive me to travel pool in the middle of the night so i can se my boyfriend in Bandung every week. My petty cash if i ran out of cash. And a friend to share food with, a friend who need me to calculate her ovulation period, and make sure she'll making ~~a baby~~love after that. (i know i know)

Bye Sloppy Friend!

I know i still have 2 weeks to go. I will maximize everything before i turn my finance world into politics.
and please, i ~~deserve~~ want THAT BONUS you all gonna get on March !!

Fairy dust where r u?

2009-11-20T05:31:00.000-08:00

One day in 2003:

Someone gave me a 'magic' necklace from Santa Barbara as a gift. A tube necklace contained with 'magic fairy dust' with a little paper in it to write down what your dream, so that the dust can work its magic and fulfill it.

I know it's too superstitious, IT WAS JUST FOR FUN.

I write down 3 wishes:

1. Pass SPMB

2. Pass HI Unpar

3. Be a Diplomat

It was fun to know that one little silly thing can put your dream come true. I once write in a little piece of paper of what i dreamt of, and wore that necklace. FYI, i'm only 17, what do u expect?

One day in the late November:

I don't know where the necklace is. I do believe in God , not a silly Magic Dust. It is strangely beautiful to know that my dream is coming to an end. The day has come , it's not only a dream now. I have it all, i passed it all. I fulfill everything. Remind me of that silly magic dust.

Now i'm in my way to be on of Junior Diplomats. I believe in every sign that universe gave me, in every little thing they lead my way, just like August in August Rush. I feel the Universe works its magic in every little step i did. It's God's magic i should be thanked of.

Now i wish i could find my magic dust, to write down that amongst all the things i write, i want to have a Perfect family, a love life that never end, i want to be a great mother and wife someday. I forgot to put that on back then.

Oh, and i forgot to write down "Louboutin" on that list. crap.

Found : sunset

2009-09-27T21:29:00.000-07:00

I'm avoiding malls. I transformed from mallovers to a mallhaters, from bdg mallclimbers to jkt antimalls.

Anyway, I found this spot: The Citrus at San Gria resort and spa. Best spot for a quality tea time, you won't find any other guest here, bcos, maybe it's too fancy for Bdg crowd, which so into 'jajanan' and 'bars'.

I ordered citrus ice tea, which is a black tea, mixed with citrus and mint leaf, and a margarita thin pizza. The price is quiet fair with its compliment : Mountain view + sunset.

It's an 8 !! ♥
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Test

2009-09-27T20:44:00.000-07:00

Testing my email2blogger . X(
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poor peacocks

2009-08-14T23:23:00.000-07:00

She's a poor little thing. She's the most beautiful bird i've ever seen (in a web, lol).

I have to admit it, yes i have one peacock belt from her fur. and now i regret it.

Save Peacock!!

A drink or two

2009-08-10T07:08:00.000-07:00

My daily uber boring activities, need a regular refreshment. I don't drink, just enjoy the ambience of a fancy place, with a fancier peeps. I keep my circle bigger, with no boundaries, just to keep my mind clear, and colorful. This is not my comfort zone, but I started to♥ this . Crossed finger on my newest circle of friend.

Xoxo
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current obsession : cakes

2009-08-08T01:55:00.000-07:00

Despite my weight loss plan, i secretly discover cake recipes from all around the wild wild web!!

to be, or not to be

2009-07-20T01:17:00.000-07:00

Seorang pacar sahabat pernah berkata, " jika seorang manusia tak tahu apa tujuan hidupnya di umur 23, then he/she won't be something".

Dan sekarang, ketika umur 24 tinggal satu semester, dan 23 tahun hidup masih mencari tujuan, i finally understand what he's talking about. Dengan step-step kehidupan yang semakin complicated, tanpa arah yang jelas, susah untuk berfokus pada cita-cita dan realita. Terutama ketika deplu sudah mulai buka lowongan.

Sepertinya langkah sudah di hadapan mata, setahun dikarbit menjadi banker cukup membuat ilmu ekonomi saya terasah. Dibandingkan 4 tahun mendalami teori HI, pelajaran setahun kemarin terasa lebih nyata. Namun ketika mata menatap kekejian teroris bom Ritz Carlton, hati saya meloncat, tertegun how much i miss those time. Mengupas kejadian-kejadian politik Indonesia, mengupas social behaviour grassroots terrorism, mengupas hubungan internasional, dan hey, apa itu di running text? "tes cpns deplu dibuka : www.deplu.go.id / www.tvone.com dari hp anda"

IS IT A SIGN? IS IT IS IT????

i don't know, if i'm ready. Mengabdi pada negara sama dengan merelakan gaji saya yang sudah merangkak naik, dan harus terjun bebas menjadi 1/4 kalinya. Mengabdi pada negara yang harus merelakan saya mungkin harus berpisah dengan comfort zone yang susah payah dibangun, mengabdi pada negara yang mungkin akan memisahkan hati dari kekasih yang terlanjur jadi enterpreneur. I see no future. I wish i were Mama Lauren :P

again, it's a QLC. Quarter Life Crisis.

I'll give it all up to God.

A cupcake theory

2009-07-15T06:16:00.000-07:00

I can say this clearly, and loud. But life will never be a simple thing, even if u are a very simple peeps. I always dreamt about everything.
From spice girls to a fashion designer ; from a cheerleader to a diplomat ; from a straight A studs to a fancy managerial career boost.

Like a cupcake, dream is not a sweet as i saw from my eyes. It require me to taste the overbuttered taste, the sweetest sweet, and a plain and so-so cake. But still, it's a fancy cake, isn't it?

So here i am pursuing my dream, and world seems not as sweet as i thought it would be. The soft pink butter cream doesn't taste like strawberry , it just a plain sweet any sugar can make. Your eyes still see a beautiful pink cream, so, it's just okay.

A year passed, and i haven't see any good things on my dream job. Is it good? or this job is overrated?

I saw that cupcake, with no buttercream now, since i just lick it all. Just a cake ; just an average cake. Even a bad lookin brownies is more tempting to me. I eat it, close my eyes, swallow it with all my senses ready to taste a sweet temptation, with a hope that the eyes can't manipulate the sweetness.
But still, it's not that good. It's not as good as it looked.

From others' perspective, i have a good starting job, a fancy and express one. A beautifully made, soft pink strawberry cupcake in a store. U just looking at it, and start to count your money to buy it.

Now, i just want my own cupcakes recipe; i don't know if it will be beautifully made like the one in the mall, or just an average lookin delicious cake in a cup. I just want to taste the softest, most delicious cupcake in the world, not a gimmick in a store.

What a YEAR!

2009-05-28T18:28:00.001-07:00

It's twenty , and it's something.

I found myself contemplating abt what shud I do, what is my purpose of this life.

And it always change EVERY WEEK.

Dan topiknya ga jauh dari pekerjaan-jodoh-pekerjaan-jodoh.

I'll update later, it's time to work!, and I graduate today from management trainee!! I'm officially a dealer by tommorow. ♥
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♡ 25 cuts win! Next bet??

2009-04-03T05:54:00.000-07:00

BI finally cut 25 bps to 7.50 , and afterall, suddenly betting tense spread amid an 'after cut' quite market. Next bid is US' NFP (non farm payroll). I collect more money since their bet is higher now (100K vs 50K). And since I don't have any gambler soul, as always, I became a custody. LOL. What a loser.

Anyway, TGIF!! People r quite happy this fri, and made my day.. ♡ ♡
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BI rate bets!!

2009-04-02T21:08:00.000-07:00

All my colleagues bet on today's cut rate. Some of them thinks 25 bps as bloomberg survey said, some of them think strenghtening spot IDR will boost confidence and bring to 50 bps cuts.. So, who's the winner??

What a week ♡

2009-04-01T04:19:00.000-07:00

Finally!!!!

After all these longwaited week,
After all rumours abt BI clearing which still works at parliamentary election,
After my friend's boss told her to work half-day in election day,
After all my criticizm to our regulator abt working hours at parliamentary election,
After I declare myself as a 'golput' if I hv to work @9 april,

Finally ...
BI announce 9 apr is public holiday,
Which means, I only work 3 days next week!!!

What a lovely week
Bye desk, bye reuters!! Come to mama, BDG!! ♥

☇ ☂

2009-03-31T05:10:00.000-07:00

What a baaaaaad baad day ! !

I don't know which one is worse:
☇ boyfriend problem
☇ banjir + macet d jakarta

Whoaaaaa what a waste!! I finally walk to my apartment ; taxi is a waste - I even didn't see ojek n bemooooo... Whaaaaat?? the traffic is stuck (like my heart lol).

I even have to walk in a flood! ::crybaby::

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Ma crib

2009-03-30T07:35:00.000-07:00

This new addiction (posting blog through my phone) has made me post UNimportant thing. My past addiction (MTV Crib) has made me want to share what is inside my refrigerator (another obsession : hollywood's fancy refr) . Let's see mine !!

1. See the mineral water bottle? It contains flower from my best friend marriage. Air siraman berbunga2 yang (katanya) akan memancarkan aura, dan jodoh pun datang) ... Yyuuk..…

2. Boxes of soft drink, and milk (my brother's)

3. And basically all these things r my brother's

♡ conclusion : not fancy at all, considering all I have is just one mineral bottle of "air siraman" ♡

What a healthy life

2009-03-30T06:08:00.000-07:00

I ate this for dinner. What a life!!

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Foosball dining table

2009-03-29T08:40:00.000-07:00

My brother has a great idea; considering my apartment is already full furnished, and no space left for his fave foosball field. And voila, with creativity, we can make this double function foosball dining table : eat n play! ♥

Miss Twenty Something

2009-03-10T08:20:00.000-07:00

Sometimes saya menginginkan hidup yang spontan, tapi terkungkung akan ketakutan gagal, dan kekecewaan. Semua penuh strategi, bahkan untuk urusan hati. As you know, brain is not a good friend of heart. Dan dua organ tadi kadang membuat skenario saya hanya terlihat seperti bungkus gorengan.

Di umur twenty-something, saya merasa brain is the biggest enemy of my heart. Saat meniti karir dan melihat masa depan menjanjikan, sekonyong-konyong hatimu berubah menjadi otak. Dan ketika otakmu sudah memberi perintah akan sesuatu hal yang bisa diterangkan dengan logika, then u'll be a heartless bitch. Cold-blooded heartless bitch.

Saat ini, i'm in Simon Cowell shoes. Especially when Ryan once said : "He doesn't have an organ that we're all have". I let my brain do what's best for me, i'm not listen to my heart, i'm not ready for it. I'm not ready for a heart, and all compensations of utilize it.

You know what, i miss my heart badly. I rather be a shallow cheesy 'dumb blonde', and have a heart. But i can't, i'm Miss Twenty Something, and Miss Twenty Something need a brain to survive.

Holiday E-card

2008-12-12T20:46:00.001-08:00

I found it here. Viva Crisis!

Thank god nobody sent me this :

why i dislikes (...)

2008-12-12T08:44:00.000-08:00

In the way getting a better etiquette, my office sent me, along with my other MA's friends to have a course at Duta Bangsa.

Actually title for this post (before edited by so called 'appropriate manner') is 'Why I Hate Stupid Girls' .. But my teacher thought me to speak assertively, so, there it is.. the assertive title.. hahaha..

I always concern about this, because almost of my friend in my certain groups, say that stupid girls is a BIG NAY. It's never be a trend. It's over. so over.

Stupid here, means, she did the
"eeeeehhh,,, i don't know (say it loudly with super CUTE voice), eeeehhh, i'm afraiid ... etc etc".

Pleeaaaseeeee... i'm soo over it. Don't ask her about global crisis, SG will always think that her life will always be OK, since she always try to find Richie Rich. Please, don't ask her about politics, or what's goin on outside there, she'll scream, "uuhh, ehhmm,, why this condition happened? i don't understand why people doing things like that?" (please note that this stated question is not delivered in a 'curious nerd students' but in a 'i dont even care' kind of voice)

That attitude only acceptable if you're 5-10 yrs old, not in this early 20s.

We don't need a full info about everything happened in the world, we don't need you to analyzing everything, you don't need to be a 'smart-book'.

Just one more thing : Please be responsive, if we're talk about something beyond average thing that we could easily found in cheap tabloids.

and one more (they never enough actually):
Please don't say "poor him/her, how could he/she do that?" . When someone try to tell you a story, and ask an advice.

You know what advice is, don't you?

ehm.. do you??

advice doesn't mean you have to ask question, honey..

oh, yeah, u're right. You always ask, complain, and a spoilt.

It's not cute anymore, Get a LIFE. GO. wake up. start walking. stop whining. work your ass off!!

Feather Head

2008-12-11T07:21:00.000-08:00

Do you remember Minnie/Mickey Mouse headband? Which is so big that you could see yourself as a human figure of Minnie Mouse? you can even make one of it ears as a glass coaster. I got it from my Uncle from Disneyland.

Of course, i won't wear it now. But history repeat itself, i got myself obsessed with something big in my head.

Something big, quirky, fun, unique stuff on your hair might made some girls stare with all the jealousy they had.

I found this gold dapple feather headband in Fre dflare, and i'm obsessed.

I also love how this model wear it without put 'too much' effort creating Blair Waldorf's hair effects.

I love everything about this headband. Tres tres chic!

(try) to eat healthier

2008-12-10T07:19:00.000-08:00

image courtessy of Adele K Thomas, as seen on BBWW

One of my friend has a serious ill, that made her have a surgery this week. And guess what, her doctor claimed it caused by her eating habit (MSG added snacks, ehm Lays and friends), and yeah -she called me right after her judgment-, i have 'that kind' of eating habit too. I've had too much snacks, and sometimes skip dinner for a guilty feeling of chocolate bar @ 23.00 , doesn't like veggies, and (since i work) skip my aerobic time .

Lately, I started my day with a 'healthy' breakfast, cereal with raisins. And i eat healthy snack, which i usually buy it since 6 mths ago, without my eyes rolled in ingredients section :

Tao Kae Noi.

I love this snack, esp its Wasabi Flavor, it gave 'strange' feeling but delizioso, mamma mia!

I could just sit and watch DVDs, relax,without worries. Here here, Healthy Snacks!

P.S : kindly list any tasty delicious healthy snacks with no MSG added. Merci Beacoup!

First Thing First

2008-12-10T06:39:00.000-08:00

I just wanna say i had too much blogs ( three of them, -i even forget the name and password- :P, my friendster blog -useless-, and my multiply -which keep me busy deleting unimportant adv from maaaany online store).

And i made a promise to myself on my 43 things , to have a 'fix' and proper blog.

So, enjoy, and ciao!

23

2008-12-08T08:27:00.000-08:00

00:00 , december 9th 2008

I'm just turn 23, and i give myself new blog.

For my little cutie busy brain.

Happy Birthday to me.

Bon anniversaire!

Buon Compleanno!